Saturday, November 27, 2004

looks like rain



i am an emotional person; i cry at the drop of a hat. my eyes fill - and spill over - in sadness, in frustration, in anger, in sympathy, and at the slightest of slights. and my tears, not always well-timed, can overwhelm all attempts at self-control. i clench my fists, bite my lip, and think of better moments, but still they fall.
i have a meeting on monday with the co-director of the organisation i work for.
exception has been taken to my inference that reading about ones planned
redundancy on the company intranet might not be the most courteous way to become informed about one's future.
and yesterday evening, out for drinks and dinner with colleagues and former
colleagues, my ex-manager - who knows me very well indeed - suggested that i spend tomorrow ranting and raving and sobbing and screaming so that i will be drained, and calm, for this minor confrontation.
my husband - poor dear - is already bracing himself.

14 comments:

  1. I love the bright blue hat in contrast with the cool greens of the water. And I really like those strange shadows in the lower right. Good luck with your meeting on Monday.
    Matt

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  2. my thoughts are with you lynn. i too cry at the drop of a hat. too soft-skinned, i've been told. rather that, though, than a hardened person who doesn't know how to feel. good luck for monday.
    gorgeous photos - the hat and the thanksgiving picture. i love your pictures.

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  3. Great picture, Lynn. The leaves in the water really give it something extra.
    Emotions are great, if you feel like crying: cry. It is the only healthy way, you know.
    My thoughts will be with you.

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  4. Good luck! (And I'm right there with you on the crying easily thing...)

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  5. On the other hand, Lynn, I've always found that the period after you know you'll be leaving an employer (albeit in my case, at least up 'till now, fortunately always voluntarily) kind of liberating. You can say whatever you want, because they can't fire you, can they? And just imagine you're wearing a happy hat like this blue one.

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  6. Sending all my best thoughts to you for this difficult confrontation, Lynn. Let's hope you'll soon be floating away from it like the leaves away from that bowler. And have a good cry after, it'll be therapy for you in your loss of something you enjoy and are good at. Let's hope your co-director recognises your contribution. Best of luck.

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  7. I never commented on the last photo yet - it had all my favorite elements (the color, the season). And this last photo - I can feel the weight of it. But dearest Lynn - you are that cheerful spot of bright blue floating along in the rain. Even the rain and murkiness can't dull it's color. ;)
    I share your problem! It's dreadful to know that the tears will be coming no matter what you feel (anger, sadness) and there is nothing stop it! But far better to be brimming w/ emotion than to be a cold and unfeeling black hole, I say. And, at the very least, you'll make them feel really, really bad! ;)

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  8. ~I'd rather know someone who is emotional and not afraid to admit it and/or show their emotions, than someone who is as cold as ice...for me to hide your emotions is to veil the person you really are...wicked good shot as well, strong vertical presentation and content when mixed with your commentary!~

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  9. real feelings take real strength...take pride in what you HAVE and dont envy those that can't (and a hug to the husband...they are such a wonderful help!)

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  10. you know the answer to this one - just be yourself!
    uber saturation going on here - i like it!

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  11. Hello Lynn, I love the way you see and use colors in your photos. As you would understand I like the Beemster and Schermer shots a lot! (Landscapes!)

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  12. I hope the Monday went okay for you and I very much agree with btezra regarding emotional people.
    And yes, the shot is wonderful!

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  13. It's not like the leaves in the water; they flow where the water wants them to flow. In life you can swim, you can even drink that water and when you do that you know that water is not something that's there to stream you, it's something you use.

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